Spiritual Preview

After my spiritual retreat in Cambodia last year, during which I felt very close to Maha Samadhi, I prayed to God to give me a preview of what comes after my soul leaves the physical body, as apparently I had some spiritual blockages there.

Then during the next months God showed me two previews of how it feels without physical body on a higher spiritual level. 

One time during Kriya Yoga meditation I suddenly was out of body and I observed myself healing somebody. While I had other out of body experiences, this time it was different because I felt tremendous, my whole body vibrating of most powerful energy, feeling in deep magical peace and love, obviously I was in a higher spiritual light body. This cannot really be described in words, I just felt extremely powerful energy flowing through me and I was in deepest peace and harmony I can ever remember.

So I realized that the physical body is just a burden, because even during deepest meditation I never even felt close to this. During these months God gave me another out of body experience to fulfill my wish of having a spiritual preview, as it always was difficult to me to understand what is coming after losing the physical body.

So basically God showed me the difference in how I feel with physical body: often heavy, burdened, everything is slow and needs lots of energy and efforts; and without physical body in a higher light body: being in magical peace and deepest love, feeling so light, vibrating of most powerful energy, feeling that everything is perfect, everything to do is very easy, needing little energy only.

 Thank you God for fulfilling this prayer wish.

Balance Your Energy

I realized that my energy is flowing best if I have a good mixture of physical activity and time for kriya yoga meditation, it is like YIN and YANG. When I tried to meditate the full day I realized that meditation often is much better after physical activity, which could be physical work, walking in nature or Hatha Yoga exercise.

When I skip the physical activity I often get very tired and then it is hard to do good meditation. As well in the morning I normally need physical activity first to activate the body after sleep. A walk in the fresh morning air and I feel much better. A round of good Hatha Yoga and a refreshing shower are good options for me as well to wake up the body in the morning.

It is always important to listen to your own body needs. So if you get tired during meditation you may consider any activity to wake up your body. Furthermore often a change of location is helpful because every location has a different energy. That is why you rarely feel good if you are at the same place all day, like staying at home all the time. 

Though when I had my best “spiritual/ love flows“ physical activity and change of place were not as important any more as my connection to God and my prana flow was so strong that 1-2 hours of sleep had been enough to feel tremendous.

As well being with loving people or visiting a place with nice music can be very uplifting and balance your energy. So sometimes I reconnected to God while sitting silently in my favourite dancing place, where there is nice salsa music played and which is visited by loving people. Of course, dancing itself can get the energy flowing again, which I often observed when I was dancing in a nice location with uplifting music and a loving community. Furthermore, sometimes it was just a nice meal in a restaurant, which helped me to open and reconnect to God and love again. 

In these situations, it helps me to enjoy food consciously and with an attitude of being thankful to everybody who contributed to it. This often triggered a beautiful love flow in me and helped me to connect more deeply to God.

Though most of the time all I needed to balance my energy was just a peaceful, silent walk in nature and concentrating on God and love at the same time. During a nature walk energy flows easily and for me, this was always the fastest way to recover from a hard and stressful working day or after having experienced emotional distress.

Listen to your own intuition and heart and you will most probably feel yourself what you need to do to get energy and love flowing again. 

Fake spiritual organizations

In August 2014 I worked for an organization, which called itself to be spiritual. Though there was no freedom given to the volunteer and no flexibility in the heart and brain of the responsible people of the organization and thus no real unconditional love for the locals and volunteers who supported the project.

The organization has the goal to plant trees for the local people in Kenya in a semi-arid area, which bear edible fruits, leaves or roots. Though the planting procedure was very inefficient and complicated, which means that a group of about 8 people could only plant about 16 trees in one day. In addition the organization wanted only to plant indigenous trees, which means that actually only kind of wild trees are planted, which often bear small or unpopular fruits or trees, which the locals can only use the leaves, but the local people asked for the real fruit trees, like mango tree, papaya tree and avocado tree, which all can grow in this area, as a female student told me, because she has these trees around her school.

As I brought many seeds for growing herbs, flowers, vegetables and berries on the camp I asked the project director where I could plant them, but he was too complicated and said that now he doesn't have time to search for a spot and before he can allow planting anything they first need to do research on any seed which I would like to be planted, so in the end it was not possible for me to plant any of my seeds, although the camp had an area of about 10 hectares with lots of empty space, where nothing was growing so far.

Moreover, there were strict and kind of fanatical rules at the organization, which took away any freedom and the free flow of love of the camp community. So there was only vegan food allowed, which means that chocolate, honey and milk were prohibited. Furthermore, coffee, tea, spicy food and processed food were forbidden. Of course there was as well no meat, cigarettes, alcohol or other drugs allowed, which was not a problem to me as I am vegetarian, non-smoker and I don't take drugs anyway, but of course, there were non-vegetarian and people who smoked secretly at the camp as well.

Furthermore, the volunteer was not allowed to leave the camp after work without telling the responsible of the project and if you went for a walk in nature you had to make sure to have reception of phone regularly, that they can contact you. So any longer walk in nature was difficult because then there would often be no reception of the mobile phone.

There were even more rules like only communication in English allowed at the camp or playing only non-competitive games. Although part of these rules, like eating vegetarian food and not taking alcohol and other drugs make spiritual sense if the people do it on there own decision and because of spiritual love and responsibility for the health. However, the problem was that there was no freedom given to the people, which resulted in lots of frustration and tension between the people at the project. So people often travelled to the next town on Sunday to have some chocolate, coffee or whatever they missed on the camp.

So, in the end, we called it to be a prison camp, because of no freedom and love but hard digging work. This resulted in my decision to leave the camp after only about 3 weeks and to go on a spiritual retreat concentrating on kriya yoga meditation, although I first planned to work at the organization for 6 months or even longer.

Of course, I had some good experiences there as well, as meeting the local people who were very humble and loving, being in peaceful nature, meeting wild animals and looking at the amazingly bright stars in the night in such a remote place without any towns close by.