In this blog post, I want to give an overview of how I receive spiritual guidance from my guru after he left his physical body and how I met him again repeated times.
In February this year, I was gifted to spend the last weeks and moments with my guru before he went home to God. He left his physical body early morning, end of February 2015. In the evening of the same day after his departure, I was sitting in meditation when I was flooded with waves of divine bliss and happiness. Within these waves of divine love my guru spoke to me: "These last days you had been my physical guardian angel to secure a peaceful environment for me to leave my physical body. Now I will be your spiritual guardian angel until you reach your heavenly home in God."
After the departure of Hans, Roger joined me for a kriya yoga retreat in Cambodia. Initially the retreat was planned for about 6 weeks. Then I had a "dream meeting" with Hans. These dream visions with my guru, which I had several times during his physical presence already, are not normal dreams. I feel that they occur on a higher metaphysical level and they often come with specially uplifting healing and blessings for me. Moreover most of the time I can remember a special message. This time after the dream meeting with Hans I just remembered that he said to me: "Why don't you stay longer on the retreat, so you would be still here on my birthday". So I extended the retreat.
All the time after the physical departure of my guru, there was a connection to him on several levels. So I often feel his presence and it is very normal for me that I hear his voice giving comments to me during normal daily activity. Then I can ask him questions as well and do a mental dialogue with him. Once I even felt that he gave me a clasp on my shoulder physically! This was in the morning after waking up, it was like a wake-up clasp "time to be spiritually efficient and concentrated on the spiritual path."
I remember at least another dream meeting with him during this retreat. One day I had the intuition to use the affirmation: "God gives me an abundance of energy to easily be active and conscious 24 hours/ day". After having repeated this affirmation many times during the evening, the next night I managed to stay fully conscious. At a certain point, this was accompanied by a special feeling of bliss and happiness. During meditation, I left my physical body and joined Hans in a metaphysical dream meeting while staying conscious all the time, so I did not lose consciousness when changing between being in my physical body and going to a higher metaphysical sphere.
Then I was back in Germany, did a caregiver course, an internship in a nursing home and then I started to care for disabled people at their home. As this was all new for me it brought many challenges. In addition, I got a job where the social environment was very tense. When I really felt in trouble I entered a bus, seated myself and then I saw a small paper laying to my feet. I was drawn to have a look at the paper and there was written: "Don't worry about your future!". After I read this my whole situation changed for the better during the next days.
This is just an example of how I receive guidance and emotional support in daily life. Such things happen often to me and it always just comes at the right time when I especially need it.
During this difficult time I had another dream meeting with Hans, where he reminded me to take more time for meditation. In addition I received several times special healing to cope with this challenging situation.
The solution to the situation came a few days later when I started meditating in the evening. My room was filled with divine presence, happiness and peace. I received tremendous healing, God talked to me, lovingly explained to me the situation and recommended me to quit this job. In addition, he told me that all these problems just were to show me the truth about mankind and planet earth and that now everything will calm down for me to have all the peace for Christmas preparation.
So I left this job and everything went for the better, I quickly found another job. These months I have several part-time home caring jobs, which I can do peacefully.
A few weeks ago Hans contacted me again in a dream vision. The main message was to let go of the attachment (and distraction) of women, which surely had been one of my biggest attachments my full life.
I give you one more example of divine presence during dream, which happened to me a few days ago. This was a very special experience. On the occasion of ongoing events in my life I was reading something about the dark side of creation. Then I fell asleep and I found myself in a situation where several dark creatures standing close to me and threatening me. Suddenly I heard a voice singing in the background: "in nomine patris" (in the name of father). The voice only repeated these three words and as soon as the singing started the dark creatures were pushed backwards and quickly had to leave the place. The singing continued and with every repetition a wave of loving, peaceful energy went through my body. After that I woke up and in my mind I continued to sing these three words and each time I repeated it, it triggered a most beautiful and divine healing wave through my body.
Nowadays most of the time I feel directly connected to God. My life is filled with love, bliss, spiritual guidance and God's presence. In addition, I encounter many small miracles during daily life.
I love you all and embrace you in my heart
May God fill your life with peace, happiness and divine joy
I wish you all most blissful Christmas days full of love